Writers block and honesty in word

Yesterday, I ran a 10k.  It was not my best time, about an hour.  I felt good the whole run.  Monday, I ran my third five mile run, in my cycle.  Time to do my six mile, I did it plus a little extra.  My training routine is three five mile runs and then the fourth is long.  The next one will be seven miles.  If you notice, you can see my writers block and my runners block working together in this blog,  I run when I wrestle my mood and my mind into my body, and get it moving.  This may not happen in a routine cycle.  In fact, it does not.  I write, when I have something to write about.  I stop writing when I don't want to talk about it.  About what is blocking me.  Inevitably it is me.  Usually, I know what I am doing and do it on purpose.  I just choose not to share it with you the reader. So here is the one, the one that reveals me for who I am.  An inconsistent man.  I am who I am and that is what I say to myself, when I am being stubborn.

I took a week off, to rest my muscles and enjoy some alcohol.  It turns out this was a good idea.  I feel better.  I know that I said "No Alcohol." I drank three times in January.  A major reduction in my normal consumption.  The week that I took off, I drank five out of the seven days.  It is very clear to me, the residual effect that alcohol has on my motivation to run.  It is not just physical, which it is, but it is mental.  Alcohol is a depressant.  So grappling with this toxin, is not what my body needs, in order to prepare itself to run 26 miles.  I will keep working to keep my intake low.  I know that I must, if I am to finish.  The big question is, do I quit smoking marijuana?  (the big reveal) I am a legal participant in Washington State.  I have fused vertebrae in my C4/C5, and life long discomfort.  I smoke it everyday.  I have during the entire time that I have been working on my marathon and this blog.  I wonder if this is why I have not finished lol.  I am now working this algorhithm into my training routine.  No alcohol, generally.  Marijuana has to be reduced or eliminated all together, but I am reluctant to say silly things about what that schedule will be.  I smoked and drank yesterday.  I ran a 10k.  I felt great.  I have been up this hill before.  Somewhere around seventeen miles, I crap out.  So this time, I will be focused on my body and what it needs.  Rather than tell you what I "will do" and then tell you how I didn't do those things, this blog will be a report of what I did do.  Come on this run with me.